God’s Prison

Today while reading the Gospel of Matthew 18:21-19:1 I had to marvel at how Jesus teaches us our Faith through Parabels and namely in this parable, believe it or not….Purgatory.  Protestants don’t believe in Purgatory and its because they say it is not in the Bible.  It is true they do not have all the books that we as Catholics have, , but, everyone has the Gospels and here is an example of Jesus teaching us about Purgatory.

Then Peter went up to Jesus and said, ‘Lord, how often must I forgive my brother if he wrongs me? As often as seven times?’
Jesus answered, ‘Not seven, I tell you, but seventy-seven times.
‘And so the kingdom of Heaven may be compared to a king who decided to settle his accounts with his servants. When the reckoning began, they brought him a man who owed ten thousand talents; he had no means of paying, so his master gave orders that he should be sold, together with his wife and children and all his possessions, to meet the debt. At this, the servant threw himself down at his master’s feet, with the words, “Be patient with me and I will pay the whole sum.” And the servant’s master felt so sorry for him that he let him go and cancelled the debt.
Now think about this…..Jesus is telling us basically how God works here in regards to our sins and namely forgiveness.  He begins by telling us that the debt is enormous and by written accounts of theologians, there is no way anyone would be able to pay that amount back in their entire lifetime.
According to one source, the Carmelite Order,  “ten thousand talents were equal to 350 tons of gold. Even if the debtor and his family would have worked their whole life, they would never have been capable to earn 350 tons of gold. The extreme estimate is made on purpose. Our debt before God is countless and unpayable!” 
What I am getting at here is how in the world can anyone even attempt to pay back their debt if they are in prison?  Jesus is basically letting the man know that if he does not pay his debt, he will be thrown into prison.   What is this debt….in reality it is our sins.  The amount Jesus talks about in terms of money is huge.  Our sins are huge and we simply do not have the means of paying it all back.  The man begs for mercy.  The King gives His mercy (which is Jesus).  When we ask Jesus to forgive us our debt is wiped away instantly.   This is where confession comes in.  We go to confession and ask for forgiveness.  Through the instrument of Priests, Jesus forgives us and gives us a Penance to atone for those sins.   If we are sincere and do our penance which is so little, everything is wiped away and we are cleansed.  It is that simple.
If you notice, the king does not have mercy on this man UNTIL the man asks for Mercy.  We too must ask God for mercy, don’t expect it without asking for it.
But, what if we don’t ask for forgiveness or do not forgive others…..what is this prison Jesus is talking about.  The Prison Jesus is talking about here is Purgatory.  If we should die with the debt of sins on our soul, we are being told  we will go to prison.  When you are in prison you are unable to pay for your debts, so someone else would have to pay that debt….correct?
That is exactly what our Faith teaches us….those in purgatory are unable to pray for themselves or help themselves while in Purgatory.  They can pray for us, but they can’t pray for themselves.  We are taught we must pray for the souls in Purgatory in order for them to be released.  Purgatory is a place of atonement for our sins.  The person who is in Purgatory will suffer to atone for their sins.   There are a number of ways for us to atone for our sins here on earth.  Scripture states that “Those who honor their father atone for sins, they store up riches who respect their mother” (Sirach 3:3-4), also, “As water quenches a flaming fire, so almsgiving atones for sins” (Sirach 3:30).  Our prayers, sacrifices and sufferings atone for sins.  So two things:  Asking for forgiveness and then atoning for those sins will spare you prison time once you die.  
Now as this servant went out, he happened to meet a fellow-servant who owed him one hundred denarii; and he seized him by the throat and began to throttle him, saying, “Pay what you owe me.” His fellow-servant fell at his feet and appealed to him, saying, “Be patient with me and I will pay you.” But the other would not agree; on the contrary, he had him thrown into prison till he should pay the debt.
His fellow-servants were deeply distressed when they saw what had happened, and they went to their master and reported the whole affair to him.
Then the master sent for the man and said to him, “You wicked servant, I cancelled all that debt of yours when you appealed to me. Were you not bound, then, to have pity on your fellow-servant just as I had pity on you?” And in his anger the master handed him over to the torturers till he should pay all his debt. And that is how my heavenly Father will deal with you unless you each forgive your brother from your heart.’
Jesus had now finished what he wanted to say, and he left Galilee and came into the territory of Judea on the far side of the Jordan.
  And in his anger the master handed him over to the torturers till he should pay all his debt. And that is how my heavenly Father will deal with you unless you each forgive your brother from your heart.’
So Jesus is being very clear here.  He is telling us that our debts must be paid before we can even think about getting to Heaven.   He is handing us over to the torturers (Purgatory) until all our sins are atoned for.  Often times, in God’s great Mercy, He will allow many trials and sufferings for us here on earth which we can use to atone for our sins.  All we need to do is accept each of those trials and sufferings, offer it to Him for those in Purgatory, for ourselves, for those we are praying for etc.  All is used for atonement of not only our sins but the sins of others and those in Purgatory.
If you struggle believing this, I would say only one thing:  Go ask Jesus and He will let you know. When we sincerely search for Truth, the truth will be found because Jesus wants us to know Truth.  He has always let me know the truth when I have come to Him with sincerity…..and this means letting go of your own ideas and thoughts on the matter so that He can fill your heart with truth.
God Bless Everyone.

There is hope for every single one of us

The other day I was pondering how God had mercy on me even though I felt I did not deserve it.  I was and will be forever grateful.

This got me thinking about all the people out there who feel like they can never be forgiven because their sins are too numerous or bad or perhaps they have been away from God for a long time.

I, myself, had been away from God for at least 18 years.  That’s a long time.  Some have been away from God much longer than that and some much less….but it doesn’t matter.

Satan wants us to feel despair and not have any hope whatsoever.  He wants us to feel like no matter what we do, we will never get to heaven and there are no second chances.  That is a lie.  On the other hand, he will convince others that no matter what they do, God will forgive them even if they never ask for forgiveness or stay in their sin thinking all will be well.  this is the sin of Presumption.

So, one sin is Despair  and the other Presumption.  I have experienced both of these scenarios.

Once I was old enough to start “partying”  I began the stage of becoming lukewarm in my faith and love for God.   God no longer played an important role in my life….all I thought about were my friends and where we were going to go on the weekends.  Once I left home and went to college I decided I no longer had to go to Mass every Sunday.  First mistake.   Now, I was in mortal sin.  I was becoming dead to grace.  I then decided I no longer had to go to confession.  Second mistake.

These two big mistakes led to many other wayward choices I made in my young life.  Choices I would never have made had I kept God in my life and obeyed His commandments.  I no longer had His “light” or strength to stay on the straight and narrow path.  There were brief instances during those years where I would think I needed to get back to God but they were quickly dispelled.

I married in my early twenties and continued to think that “I was a good person” so I would get to Heaven eventually, even though, I admitted I would probably be in purgatory for awhile before getting there.  I never even thought that I could go to Hell.   My sin of Presumption.  I had to justify my behavior and we all justify our wrong behavior because that is the only way we would be able to live with ourselves.  Otherwise we would go mad.

After our daughter was born I went to Graduate School….it was during this time that I began to feel a deep sadness.  I couldn’t figure it out…I had everything I ever wanted.  A wonderful Husband and beautiful daughter and life was good.  But, it was not.  I would sit on the floor feeling darkness envelop me and I thought I was becoming depressed.  I didn’t know why but the darkness kept getting darker.  I could not escape it.

I decided I would go to confession.  I did, but it wasn’t a good confession.  I didn’t know my sins and I didn’t even know how to pray anymore.  There was no feeling or emotion left in me.  I was so distant from God.  I went from lukewarm to ice cold. I went to Mass a few times and then went back to my old way of life.

I do believe that even though I was in the sin of presumption,  thinking that I was ok, I knew deep down that if I would die at that particular moment, things would not be good.  I had a great fear of dying;  of getting into a car accident or something like that.  I  must have known deep down that dying without God, not loving God, or being in the State of Grace at death would and could be Hell for all eternity for me.   I did not voice those thoughts or even think those thoughts because if I had I would have changed my life.  Rather, I kept pushing it deeper and deeper within me not wanting to admit this scenario, but my conscious was trying to reveal this truth to me and I knew it.   Now, if you are in the state of grace or have enough reason within you, you will know that there is no fear in dying if you are right with God.  I knew I wasn’t right with God.

By the grace of God our daughter was going to a Catholic School and she would bring home prayers for me to say….she would tape them to the wall by our bed and ask me to say them.  They were prayers to the Holy Spirit.  I said them a few times and then forgot about them.  However, after a few years of this, and my seeing how virtuous she was, my heart began to melt.  I couldn’t figure out how I could be so bad and have a daughter who was so good.

By the time she was 12, I was becoming more and more open to God.  God used my parents, husband and daughter to bring me back to Him.  My father was having heart surgery and when I asked him what kind of books he would like me to get him to read during his recuperation phase, he gave me a list of religious books from Tan Books.  While going over his list, I decided to get some myself.  That was a true beginning for me.  Years before that, my parents bought my husband and I a painting of the Divine Mercy Image.  I stuck it upstairs on some obscure wall, not knowing what to do with it, and our daughter continued the mission God had in store for her.  She would make me angels, a crucifix, and give me prayers which she framed,  all wrapped up as gifts.  I was also forced by my husband to be the one to teach her about the Eucharist when she was to make her First Communion (which really made me irritated).

God’s plans are so mysterious in how He reaches out to us and brings us back.  He knows all of our pains and woundedness.  He knows how to soften our hearts like no one else ever could.  He knew why I left Him and He knew that one day, with the help of those whom I loved,  their love and patience would bring me back.  No one forced me to come back; I came back out of my own free will.

But, God allowed something to happen to me that hurried me along.   I hurt my back pretty bad so I was immobile for a long time.  I immediately ran to the Blessed Mother and began praying the rosary once again, which led me back to Jesus.  One day, I heard a Priest speaking about sin on EWTN.  I immediately was crushed with the deepest sorrow and soaked with my own tears.  I remembered the Painting of the Divine Mercy Image…ran to take it off the wall and held it in my hands and cried out to God to please give me a second chance.  I begged Him to not let me go to Hell but to please give me another chance.

You see, Satan was now tempting me with the sin of despair.  I was in the deepest state of despair believing that no matter what – I was now going to Hell and nothing could stop this from happening.   God was in control, I was bad and I basically made my choice.  I could not believe there was any hope for me.  After about 45 minutes of intense begging and tears that would not stop flowing,  I renounced my sinful life and began to bargain with God…telling Him I would change everything about my life; come back to Him;  learn about Him once again; and obey His commandments.  I wanted to love Him and get right with Him again.  At that moment, I began to get thoughts that I needed to call a Priest immediately and go to confession.  I did this and this Priest reassured me that once I repented and gave up my sinful life, God’s mercy was able to banish satans lies which told me there is no hope.  He told me that no matter what my sins were, no matter how bad they are, we can all be forgiven, if and only if, we are willing to repent and ask for forgiveness.

Afterall, look at the prophets of old.  Moses killed a man and look how God used him.  King David committed adultery and had the woman’s husband killed….yet God used him in a powerful way.   Trust me, God uses all of our weaknesses to help fulfill the mission each one of us has while on this earth.   The Apostles were commen men who were not saintly when Jesus chose them to lead the Church.

The only time one cannot be saved is when they are in the sin of despair because they won’t accept God’s forgiveness.  God will always forgive, but we must accept His forgiveness.  Judas could not believe he could be forgiven and hanged himself.  He was in the sin of despair.  Jesus so badly wanted to forgive him, but he (Judas) just couldn’t accept what he had done to Jesus and therefore felt as though Jesus could not forgive him.  What a terrible lie.

God Bless all of you and may you all have hope.  God will always be there for you and be there waiting for you to return to the fold.  But remember one thing…..none of us know the day or hour that we will be taken.  We don’t know if we have an hour left or 50 years….so don’t delay.





Pharaoh vs Our Government

I know this may be a bit weird, but for some reason I keep seeing the parallels between the time of Pharoah and the Israelites and our government/society  and Trump advocates.

We know that God works in very mysterious ways, but as Hebrews  13:8 states, “Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever”.   Always the same God throughout the history of mankind.

We know that we are going through a great purification which is meant to save our souls and bring us to repentance.  We know that the world is in chaos, moral values are being turned upside down… in other words, we are now calling evil good and good evil.


Isaiah 5:20 

Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter!

2 Timothy 3:1-5 

But understand this, that in the last days there will come times of difficulty. For people will be lovers of self, lovers of money, proud, arrogant, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, heartless, unappeasable, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not loving good, treacherous, reckless, swollen with conceit, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people.

2 Peter 2:1 

But false prophets also arose among the people, just as there will be false teachers among you, who will secretly bring in destructive heresies, even denying the Master who bought them, bringing upon themselves swift destruction.

At every turn, no matter what President Trump says or does, groups within the government and media are coming against him with a ferociousness I have never seen the likes of.

President Trump is fighting for the People and for Christianity. We, the people, are praying to God to please deliver us from all this evil just as the Israelites did for 400 years. God has heard our prayers. I do believe that. I believe He is at work in our world right now and He is allowing the evil to be brought to a head and bringing all their evil deeds into the light.

These evil doers are no longer in the shadows….whether it be in the Church, our government, media or elsewhere. They have all grown very bold and prideful and they are fighting against every single one of us who wish to live by God’s laws. After all, That’s what this is all about.

Why do you think they have all turned on President Trump?  He is trying to bring back Christian Values,  save our Country from the One World Government Plan which is to take God out of our lives and institute Communist/Socialist values.

The ten plagues brought against the Egyptians was in response to Pharoahs unwillingness to let the people go.  However, in the end, God wins.  He brought the Israelites to safety by opening up the Red Sea and at the same time allowing the sea to fall back down upon the Egyptians who dared to follow.

Once the Israelites were in the desert, the Lord tested them.  It was during this time that they were being purified and it took 40 years of purification before they could finally walk into the promised land.

Where are we in all of this.  The Lord is using President Trump just as He used Moses.  In different ways of course, but the parallel is the same.  President Trump is asking Congress to implement laws that would protect the people; improve peoples lives;  reverse laws that come against Christianity and putting God back into our Society.  But they are fighting him every step of the way.

What are our plagues:  We are seeing wars and rumors of wars.   The war on ISIS, MS-13 gangs, floods, fires, destructive storms, diseases, famine, breakup of families, satanism flooding our schools, increased drug addictions, cultural and moral wars within our society, etc. etc. etc.

The Church will pay a heavy price for the evil that is going on there as well.  I think it was Pope Benedict who said that the Church will go through a great purification and in the end it will be much smaller, and very humble, but that it will rise up from the ashes and truly be a spiritual renewal for all.    Have you heard about the Priest who was caught with drugs at an orgy party with fellow Priests.  This was in Rome of course.  It’s absolutely crazy, but it does not disturb me because I see God working here….these poor individuals have been duped by the evil one and they will pay a heavy price for their deeds.

Look at all the lawlessness going on in our Government…..and they (lawmakers) look the other way.   It is all being brought into the light.  We don’t understand a lot of what is going on right now, but be at Peace.  Peace, because we know God is with us and working for us.

We will be set free from all of this evil inflicted upon us but we too, are being tested.  Stand your ground and be firm.  Stay with God and don’t reject Him.  Do not follow the evil laws or ways that are being implemented.  Some are even going to Jail because they refuse to follow the godless laws.  They will be rewarded.   Look at all the Christians who died for their Faith in God.  You may want to get to confession if you haven’t been there for awhile, for we never know when God will act.

One day soon, we too will be led to safety.  God will inflict His wrath upon the evil doers of our time just as He did to the Egyptians and Pharoah.  He is giving them many chances to repent right now…..many chances.  Keep praying and never give up.

Before I close I happened to come across something of interest.  It is Moroccan Argan Oil from Wildersupply.com.  Check it out.  Supposed to be better than coconut oil for your skin, so if you have dry skin and need to rehydrate, look into this product.  Also, My daughter just told me about Moringa Oil, which I have not looked into yet.  I wrote about the Miracle Moringa Tree, so I would guess that the oil would be fabulous.

God Bless